From the Heart

I am sitting in a hotel room as I write this. My wife has begun training for her new job and while she is in training, she is being put up in a hotel for the next two months. I wanted to spend as much time with her as possible while she began her training so for this week, I have come with her. So, here I am, in this hotel while she is stuck in a classroom learning.

What am I to do? Well this hotel is pretty great... free breakfast in the morning, and not just the typical continental breakfast, a full cooked to order breakfast... very nice. A restaurant, pool, gym, you name it. It is very hot outside so, I have resigned myself to at least on this day, staying in the hotel and staying cool.

My wife is such a tecky geek, she has wired both of our computers to hook up to the tv in our room and use them as dvd players. That is the one thing I wish this place had. However, we make the most of what we have... wow did that sound as cheesy as I think it did?

So I am watching some tv shows on dvd and laying back to enjoy some time in this free room with free AC... hahaha. As I'm watching, I'm noticing something. Sometimes, there comes a moment in either a really good movie or an amazing tv show that draws you in and speaks from the heart. Whether it is a really good peice of dialogue, an emotionally charged scene that can or cannot contain words, or a song.

That is what I've been noticing lately as I've been watching these dvds. A couple of nights ago, my wife and I were watching a show on dvd where one of the female leads was losing her mom to cancer. Now, I've seen this episode a few times, so I know what's going to happen and when it's going to happen, but it never fails... the scene appears, the music is playing, and the next thing you know, I'm wiping a tear from my cheek. I don't know why, don't know how, but I get moved by things like this. I don't care how it makes me look to others, I get emotionally connected.

A few months ago, one of the greatest tv series of all time ended... I am referring to LOST. A bunch of us got together to watch this series end, and by the time the finale was over, there I was, emotional and crying. I had gotten to a point where I cared what happened to these people and cared about what unfolded in their lives. There was my wife, to be there, making fun of me. I love her. She makes fun of the fact that I get as she would put it "too involved" and that I need to remember it's just a show, and that what happened didn't really happen.

Duh! I know all this, I just like to get lost no pun intended in these shows. Sometimes, I think we need to get lost in the the unrealistic, the pretend, and make believe. We all need to suspend disbelief even if for just an hour and let others speak to your heart. Emotions are a good thing... there meant to be felt... to be displayed. Take time to feel something, in the moment, that is where you will find your heart and it is there that you will find that your love is truly displayed. I'll be honest, if I didn't find myself involved in these shows or movies, I might not have had the courage or the words to tell my wife that I loved her... Sure I felt it, I knew it, and I believed it, but having never been really good at speaking from the heart; seeing others do it, made me feel like I could do it too.

You never what you're capable of unless you allow yourself to believe that your heart is stronger than you give it credit for. Feel something now, find it somewhere, live it out now.

Nuff said... for now

Until next time
P